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A Parting Glass

April 10 2014

"I'll gently rise and softly call, good night and peace be with you all" A more fitting line to signal the end of my tenure in these rooms can not be found. In my time here I have tried to give some insight into the life of a transsexual woman and why we should not all be labelled under a fetish umbrella. I hope to some of you it made you realize we are not all the same. I realize too, that some care and some will take issue with my views, I cannot speak for all in my position, I never meant too. That some would see my words as arrogance or that I should get of my high horse, is unfortunate but sadly missing the point. This forum has some fantastic people, some who I have met in person and they have enriched my life and made me smile, still do. Others who have messaged me or taken time to post responses, I thank all of you for all I have ever tried to do was paint my picture with words. Those of you who want to keep in touch can message me for the next week..then I will darken your doorstep no more, it's been special.

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  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    I don't really know you but I enjoyed reading your posts and it gave me a good insight into your life. I wish you all the very best and I hope it is good reasons you are leaving, not bad ones. Thank you for the enlightenment.

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    If your leaving because people have been horrid, don't let them drive you out.It happens to us all when we think what the hell am I doing on this wretched site well your educating and your learning if voices are shut down by those that have nothing better to do than focus on the negative then we all loose. it gets a bit sticky in the sand pit, we get sand in our crack now and again and we get on our high horse or the merry go round horse. take a break, that's the best thing to domany do and then come back as someone else or just shut down for a while or go on silent running and don't post. you have to remember that the majority of people read the forums but never post or a hell of a lot don't read the forums at all. I for one enjoy your posts very much. but its your choice and I wish you well LadyT

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    Hi Christiets, you have brought a lot to these forums and many will miss you should you go and not return. If that is the case, of course I wish you well, but, being selfish, I would for one like you to stay. For me, and I have said this before, you share many insights into humanity, with your own style of class, grace and dignity. These are rare qualities here, and I value them highly. As Lady T said, this place is the sandpit, and it's inevitable that you will get sand in your ears and eyes and down your throat at times, a bit of a break can do wonders if this is the case. I've seen many people come & go, & return, myself included. I am actually on a RHP break at the moment (!?) Seems it's a bit like Hotel California- you can check out, but you can never leave. Whether it's here or elsewhere, I'll say this to you again too. Don't stop doing what you are doing. You never know who is being inspired.

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    I've always adored your posts and learned heaps from you. You are truly a brave and beautiful soul, and one amazing woman. I hope Ms Bird will stay?

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    Understand how you feel Christie,sometimes it all gets a little too much here,but as Lady T and Unrushed have said you bring your own particular insights and life experience here....and you don't know who is reading your posts and taking heart from them...I hope you only take a break and come back soon Hugs xx Q .

  • MsSuperFoxy

    MsSuperFoxy

    11 years ago

    You know who you are Christiets...that's the most important thing! As for those telling you to get off your high horse and see your words as arrogant ...well go tell em you have a wagon train of supporters behind you!! Foxy

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    to you Christiets. X - Posted from rhpmobile

  • lovman8

    lovman8

    11 years ago

    I have enjoyed your thoughtful and considered comments, and viewed your take on the gender continueum with curiousity and interest. Good luck as you meander through the next chapter your your life

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    Of course I support you if it was in your best interest, but I would be devastated that you left because you felt your arm was twisted or if one individual made you feel uncomfortable in said sandpit. If you need to take a break, enjoy, but I for one will miss you and your amazing insights and personal dignity & poise. And couldn't agree more with Unrushed Quoting 'Unrushed1' Don't stop doing what you are doing. You never know who is being inspired. You truly are inspirational. I wish we'd met. Maybe we can???? Hopefully I can rely on a little bird to make that happen.

  • madotara69

    madotara69

    11 years ago

    said get off your high horse Christiets, sure that is what you are referring too. If you think I was being rude and disrespectful, then good luck with your adventures, I made a promise to treat you the same as anyone else, you have let me down if that is so. Not going to patronize you, and called you a lady without question always. Mado Mado Tara xx

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    Kind words that I take with me, this little bird will still sing :-) Your support is appreciated too, but my intent through all was a voice that is rarely heard for those who walk a difficult path, the roads we chose are fraught with fear, predjudice, ignorance and discrimination, although we all differ, we all seek the same result. To be at peace with who we are and blossom in the time we have. Unrushed: Very apt, you can check out but never leave.. thank you for the hand that reached out on more than one occassion.Foxy, The wedges were great but your friendship is better, glad to call you a friend, and to the next beer!Meander, Lady T, Thank you for the words, for the moment I need to step back a little and look after myself and get ready for my meetings next week in Thailand. Looking forward to the rest of my life. Miss Kay, have no fear, it would be a lie if I said that the whole thing didn;t hurt but in truth it was just the icing on a cake, I had stepped back previously because I felt that RHP was probably not the right place to air my views. The very forum reinforces the stereotype I speak out against. It needs to change and reflect reality not convenience. (sic) Mado, your weren't disrespectful, but I didn't agree with you, sometimes my style of writing gives the impression of a lack of humility or arrogance, but the only way I can defend that charge is that I lost my humility, my dignity, and friends, career, family on this journey and all you are left with is a belief in who you are and what you believe in. In the end there is only who you are. "Who knows what the day will bring, it could bring anything, who knows if we'll still be here, we could be there.. " Gerry Rafferty

  • madotara69

    madotara69

    11 years ago

    You know we love you. xx

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    can read the posts in a wrong way I have offended people and I even don't know how I did it. I think I am the sweetest thing, still some read me wrong. When we are all bend down to the one voice what does this say about our individuality. I DON'T" WANT TO CONFORM I WILL NOT, I WILL NOT see I will not have anal sex, doesn't matter it is the newest craze, fuck that.

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    There is a time when you need to walk away, not to be disrespectful or anti social...but to listen to your spirit and your soul. I hope in the time you are away, you can connect with your inner self and become a stronger person from the experience you have had here. I am only new to these forums and I totally agree with the fact that there are some really interesting people here. I don't mean to assume too much, but I am sure you have grown, learnt and helped in your time here. From a person who doesn't even know you, I wish you all the best and I am sure if and when you do decide to enter the fray ;). You will have people here to welcome you with open arms and opinions :)

  • Cazz61

    Cazz61

    11 years ago

    Christiets You are a very special Lady and your leaving will be a great loss to the forums ..... I wish you love and happiness for the future (K)

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    Hi, I for one, have read your posts with interest and thanks in part to you 'I kissed a transgender and I liked it' la la la. Za - Posted from rhpmobile

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    Christie, it's a big wide world out there, it's not "fair", people don't always agree with you, and they're not always sympathetic. Take care of yourself and your loved ones. - Posted from rhpmobile

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    Have fun.

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    Hopefully it's not just comments on the forum? We don't chat a great deal on the forum but have been poking around more recently. For us (and especially mrs Madmanx in this case) we like to learn and gain understanding. I also know that written words can easily be mis read and taken out of context. Some others and just be poorly written due to the uneducated (or lack of understanding) I for one hope that you don't leave due to poor comments. If as others have said they have learnt from you then you are a value. Take strength from those that are positive rather than the knocks from those who are not? (Easier said than done but...)

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    All the best Christies.... But I do hope you change your mind. xxx

  • MsSuperFoxy

    MsSuperFoxy

    11 years ago

    Have fun in Thailand Missy Christiets and see you when you get back...singing like I bird! Foxy

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    I wish I could articulate my meanings and thoughts better than I do, I wish I could meet so many of you just to say thank you, I wish I could meet my detractors to explain myself better, I wish forums such as RHP didn't just pander to the fetish but realize they could be so much more. I wish I had more personal strength to allow me to fight my corner better, I wish I could laugh more with friends, I wish all of the above to every one of you.

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    For you, there'll be no more crying, For you, the sun will be shining, And I feel that when I'm with you, It's alright, I know it's right To you, I'll give the world to you, I'll never be cold 'Cause I feel that when I'm with you, It's alright, I know it's right. And the songbirds are singing, Like they know the score, And I love you, I love you, I love you, Like never before. And I wish you all the love in the world, But most of all, I wish it from myself. And the songbirds keep singing, Like they know the score, And I love you, I love you, I love you, Like never before, like never before.

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    Thank you.. So much. One of my all time favorites, I wonder how you knew ...

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    That made me tear up. Meander doing Stevie.... And I hope all of your wonderful wishes come true xxx You deserve every single one xxx

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    Mea, that gave me goose bumps. It has so much meaning in life, as I assume it will have for Christiets. Farewell my friend :-)

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    If life is a river, and your heart is a boat And just like a water baby, baby, born to float And if life is a wild wind that blows way on high And your heart is Amelia dying to fly Heaven knows no frontiers And I've seen heaven in your eyes And if life is a barroom in which we must wait 'Round the man with his fingers on the ivory gates Where we sing until dawn of our fears and our fates And we stack all the dead men in self-addressed cratesIn your eyes, faint as the singing of a lark That somehow this black night Feels warmer for the spark Warmer for the spark To hold us 'til the day When fear will lose it's grip And heaven has its way Heaven knows no frontiers And I've seen heaven in your eyes If your life is a rough bed of brambles and nails And your spirit's a slave to man's whips and man's jails Where you thirst and you hunger for justice and right And your heart is a pure flame of man's constant nightIn your eyes faint as the singing of a lark That somehow this black night Feels warmer for the spark Warmer for the spark To hold us 'til the day When fear will lose it's grip And heaven has its way And heaven has its way When all will harmonize And know what's in our hearts The dream will realize Heaven knows no frontiers And I've seen heaven in your eyes Heaven knows no frontiers And I've seen heaven in your eyes

  • madotara69

    madotara69

    11 years ago

    "Don't worry about a thing, 'Cause every little thing gonna be all right. Singin': "Don't worry about a thing, 'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!" Rise up this mornin', Smiled with the risin' sun, Three little birds Pitch by my doorstep Singin' sweet songs Of melodies pure and true, Sayin', ("This is my message to you-ou-ou:") Singin': "Don't worry 'bout a thing, 'Cause every little thing gonna be all right." Singin': "Don't worry (don't worry) 'bout a thing, 'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!" Rise up this mornin', Smiled with the risin' sun, Three little birds Pitch by my doorstep Singin' sweet songs Of melodies pure and true, Sayin', "This is my message to you-ou-ou:" Singin': "Don't worry about a thing, worry about a thing, oh! Every little thing gonna be all right. Don't worry!" Singin': "Don't worry about a thing" - I won't worry! "'Cause every little thing gonna be all right."

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    Blackbird singing in the dead of night Take these broken wings and learn to fly All your life You were only waiting for this moment to arise. Blackbird singing in the dead of night Take these sunken eyes and learn to see All your life You were only waiting for this moment to be free. Blackbird fly Blackbird fly Into the light of the dark black night. Blackbird fly Blackbird fly Into the light of the dark black night. Blackbird singing in the dead of night Take these broken wings and learn to fly All your life You were only waiting for this moment to arise You were only waiting for this moment to arise You were only waiting for this moment to arise.

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    Mama told me not to waste my life She said spread your wings my little butterfly Don't let what they say keep you up at night And if they give you shhhh... Then they can walk on by My feet, feet can't touch the ground And I can't hear a sound But you just keep on running up your mouth yeah Walk, walk on over there 'Cause I'm too fly to care, oh yeah Your words don't mean a thing I'm not listening Keep talking, all I know is Mama told me not to waste my life, She said spread your wings my little butterfly Don't let what they say keep you up at night And they can't detain you 'Cause wings are made to fly And we don't let nobody bring us down No matter what you say – it won't hurt me Don't matter if I fall from the sky These wings are made to fly (Hey, hey, woo!) I'm firing up on that runway I know we're gonna get there someday But we don't need no "Ready. Steady. Go!", no Talk, talk turns into air And I don't even care, oh yeah Your words don't mean a thing I'm not listening Keep talking, all I know is Mama told me not to waste my life, She said spread your wings my little butterfly Don't let what they say keep you up at night, And they can't detain you 'Cause wings are made to fly And we don't let nobody bring us down No matter what you say – it won't hurt me Don't matter if I fall from the sky These wings are made to fly I don't need no one saying hey, hey, hey, hey I don't hear no one saying hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey You better keep on walking I don't wanna hear your talking, boy'd You better keep on walking I don't wanna hear your talking, boy'd Your words don't mean a thing I'm not listening They're just like water off my wings Mama told me not to waste my life She said spread your wings my little butterfly (my little butterfly) Don't let what they say keep you up at night And they can't detain you 'Cause wings are made to fly And we don't let nobody bring us down No matter what you say – it won't hurt me Don't matter if I fall from the sky These wings are made to fly And we don't let nobody bring us down No matter what you say – it won't hurt me Don't matter if I fall from the sky These wings are made to fly

  • madotara69

    madotara69

    11 years ago

    Jonathan Livingston seagull.

  • RHP

    RHP User

    11 years ago

    im going to miss you hunni ,,,i could never put my emotions n how it really is to be trans ,,,,,like you have ,,,,a piece of my heart goes with you ,,please cherish it and think of me sometimes ,,,,,xxxxxxxxxxxxxx all my love ,,,,,catherine ,,

  • Lovinit28andKC72

    Lovinit28andKC72

    11 years ago

    I've meet you, hugged you, kissed you and will always adore you, you are and always will be a friend of mine. It was my pleasure to meet such a wonderful person, who has enriched my life on so many levels....💋........angel kisses for you beautiful...... 💋