Did IR porn turned me bi.......

January 19 2016

Like many young men, I am guy that began looking through the early years of the internet for porn. After a while I started looking at more and more IR (interracial) porn. This began mainly began due to visual aspects of the big black cocks and contrast between the darks skin of the men and white women playing with them. Over time I found that this is all I looked at for a while and was what really got me off like no other porn. So after a few years of this, I found my self starting to focus more on the big black cocks than the women. Was this IR porn starting to reprogram my mind and brainwash me to search for big black cocks on the net. I became obsessed. All i thought about and masturbated too was big black cocks. Then I started to think about what it would feel like to be on my knees to worship a big black cock, to be like these sexy women worship these big black cocks. I had plenty of girlfriends and had lots of sex. I never thought of my self as bi, or bi curious, let alone to do anything to another guy, yet something was making me search out these big black cocks on the net. Then I saw some white boys serving these big black men and found myself so hard over this. I could not believe that the is what was getting me off. Then one day whilst in a public toilet at a local park, a guy opened the cubical whilst I was at the urinal. He was an attractive early twenties guy, fit, completely naked and playing with this large cock. I was shocked. I felt the adrenaline surge through me and I was frozen. I didn't know what to do of for to react to it. All those images started rolling through my head and my cock started to get hard watching this young guy pull on his big cock. I couldn't believe it. Then I didn't think twice. I just walked into the cubical and closed the door. I dropped to my knees and took my first cock in my mouth. I could not believe what was happening and what I was doing. But I enjoyed this new sensation of this big hard cock in my mouth and me serving it. It wasn't before i tasted pre cum and he uttered the words I am going to cum. He pulled out and blew his load on the cubical wall. I quickly did up my pants and ran out. My legs we shaking, my heart was pounding, what just happened and why? I was shocked. But since then all i thought about is how I wanted a big black cock next. I became obsessed. I started to live a double life during my lunch breaks in the city and would search out for adult book store back rooms and for what is better known as glory holes. I didn't want to see them men, I just wanted to suck big cocks. I sometimes waited a long time in these video booth glory hole cubicles for the right cock to come along, then would suck it like nothing else. Always with a condom. Then one lunchtime whilst sitting in this dark video booth cubical, I heard the door on the other side close. I then heard the zipper go on some pants. It was dark and could not see anything as the video in this cubical had not begun. I could hear the hand going on his cock. Then....a big black cock came through the glory hole. It would have been at least 9.5" and nice average thickness, I couldn't believe it. I had been waiting for this moment for so long. I didn't put a condom on him, I wanted to taste his cock. I worked his cock like no other before. I could hear him moan and grunt on the other side to what i was doing to his cock and this only spurred me on more. I took my time and enjoyed every second of it, working him up to climax and then stopping each time. I could tell he enjoyed it as he kept letting me do this rather than just wanting to get his load off. Then I went for it and felt his cock give a big shudder and my mouth filled with his big creamy load. I could not believe it. I had been dreaming of this moment for so long and loved every second of it. It was sweet and savoury all at the same time. He pulled his cock back as my mouth milked every last drop. He lent down and told me that it was the best blow job he had ever had and left..... Now I ask my self how did I get to this position. I never thought of my self has gay or bi, let alone bi curious. I always and only ever loved women. I never thought of men in this way. I never had urges to seek out big black cocks like this......why?

Comments

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    But why are you being so hard on yourself? You state a few times that you love women but dont know why you are attracted to cock. Its the sexual act you are attracted to, not the male person. Isnt that why you enjoy the glory holes? You cant see the body attached to it? So the focus is totally about sucking cock? I wouldnt even consider using the word gay in your experiences. You arent gay, maybe not even bi. Do you want a guy to reciprocate, or fuck you? Then you might be bi.Sorry I cant give you an answer to how or why this happened. Geez I dont even know how I got where I am!!Do you really need to analyse the nitty gritty? Just enjoy your journey of sexperiences and dont bother trying to label it.

  • Missb4u

    Missb4u

    9 years ago

    Wish I had a big black cock 😜 I love the contrast of white on black. as for your post op what's the problem? I think it's fantastic that you like bbc and women. Makes for a hot story to. Turned me on.

  • MrMechanic

    MrMechanic

    9 years ago

    I'm a chocolate lover.Love chocolate ladies. First time I saw dark black labia and black round bottom sliding down my thick white pole I thought Id gone to heaven.And those thick round dark chock puffy nipples are so amazingly soft and yummy to lick.Dark ladies have much softer skin, its like velvet.And their labia is the softest know to all womankind.The pink vulva is too sexy, OMFGThe vagina is so flexible and its like fucking velvet. Those dark lips and fingers around my white pole blows my mind visually.And taking my load on their pink tongue and dark face and breasts, just heaven. Problem is I look like your average southern white redneck and they wont go near me or talk to me, bums me out.Every time I had a black girl with me friends would later say, "I never expected you of all people to like black women."I just blow it off and say "I like all girls no matter the color." when I really want to slap them upside of their racist head for saying it. Fact is, Id crawl over ten good white pussies to get to a black one.And yes I may be stereotyping them myself but I just don't care, I love them.IME they don't play mind games like white girls do, they are more mature for their age and better socialised. Weird thing is when it comes to white women I prefer them as white as possible and don't like tanningLove a pair of pure white breasts and bottom over anything tanned.

  • MrMechanic

    MrMechanic

    9 years ago

    Sorry for hijacking your thread mate, its just the topic of black on white comes up I get all silly. Id also like to say there is a female member who I shall not name but has bene here a long time.I longed to see her breasts and then last year she finally posted a pic of them in her profile.Oh man they are special, not big but perfectly shaped and perky, sensational dark choc nipples, slightly puffy and thick and round, long black hair laying over them, could be best I've ever laid eyes on and she's short and cute as hell. However out of my age range and I suspect I'd be the last guy her she would hook up with.That's life.And if she ever sees this, I'm sorry for perving at your profile so often but you are so hot I just cant stop myself.

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    you can't feel something that wasn't already there due to watching porn..... Worry less about the perception of others(this is from your repetition of "I love women") and focus on what feels right for you.... - Posted from rhpmobile

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    I agree just to enjoy yourself and go with both male and female, as the mood takes you. Who cares whether you fit the bi mould or not. Many of us are turned on by each way activity, you certainly won't be judged or labelled here, bring it on I say. Being into both will just enhance your sexuality. And what you choose to put on your profile is up to you according to who you want to predominantly attract. Happy days but, good for you 👍😀 - Posted from rhpmobile

  • hungsubboy

    hungsubboy

    9 years ago

    Quoting 'willowtree_2' But why are you being so hard on yourself? You state a few times that you love women but dont know why you are attracted to cock. Its the sexual act you are attracted to, not the male person. Isnt that why you enjoy the glory holes? You cant see the body attached to it? So the focus is totally about sucking cock? I wouldnt even consider using the word gay in your experiences. You arent gay, maybe not even bi. Do you want a guy to reciprocate, or fuck you? Then you might be bi.Sorry I cant give you an answer to how or why this happened. Geez I dont even know how I got where I am!!Do you really need to analyse the nitty gritty? Just enjoy your journey of sexperiences and dont bother trying to label it. Thank you Willowtree_2 for your kind, understanding and sensitive reply. I think you raised a good point. It may be the sexual act that I am more attracted too. I know it is more society's labels that is making me question my self. I know I should just embrace it and enjoy it for what it is, "an act" and what feels good, but you can't help think was this IR/BBC porn the reason......It has changed me into craving big black cocks, even when my main preference is woman. As I said, I do not consider my self bi or gay, yet I think more and more about big black cocks, now to the point where i have wondered to submitting to one and allowing him do do what he wants to me. Yet my main sexual preference has always been woman......very confusing

  • hungsubboy

    hungsubboy

    9 years ago

    Quoting 'Missb72' Wish I had a big black cock 😜 I love the contrast of white on black. as for your post op what's the problem? I think it's fantastic that you like bbc and women. Makes for a hot story to. Turned me on. Thank you Missb72. Glad you enjoyed my experiences/story and that it turned you and that you are accepting of it!

  • hungsubboy

    hungsubboy

    9 years ago

    Quoting 'Probity' Sorry for hijacking your thread mate, its just the topic of black on white comes up I get all silly. Id also like to say there is a female member who I shall not name but has bene here a long time.I longed to see her breasts and then last year she finally posted a pic of them in her profile.Oh man they are special, not big but perfectly shaped and perky, sensational dark choc nipples, slightly puffy and thick and round, long black hair laying over them, could be best I've ever laid eyes on and she's short and cute as hell. However out of my age range and I suspect I'd be the last guy her she would hook up with.That's life.And if she ever sees this, I'm sorry for perving at your profile so often but you are so hot I just cant stop myself. Not a problem Probity. AI don't mind that my story gave you the feelings to express your take and desires in relation to the IR topic.

  • hungsubboy

    hungsubboy

    9 years ago

    Quoting 'Stirry' you can't feel something that wasn't already there due to watching porn..... Worry less about the perception of others(this is from your repetition of "I love women") and focus on what feels right for you.... - Posted from rhpmobile Thanks Stirry! I get that, but I still feel like watching all that IR porn did play a large part in reprogramming my mind as I never had these feelings prior to watching this type of porn. I get the perception v what feels right thing! Thanks.

  • hungsubboy

    hungsubboy

    9 years ago

    Quoting 'I_touch_myself2' I agree just to enjoy yourself and go with both male and female, as the mood takes you. Who cares whether you fit the bi mould or not. Many of us are turned on by each way activity, you certainly won't be judged or labelled here, bring it on I say. Being into both will just enhance your sexuality. And what you choose to put on your profile is up to you according to who you want to predominantly attract. Happy days but, good for you 👍😀 - Posted from rhpmobile Thanks I_touch_myself2, great profile name by the way! ;) I agree, I think it is societies influence on what is meant to be accepted or not. Its funny though how society is more accepting of woman that love men, but enjoys the experience of another woman at times, rather than the same for a guy.

  • Mr_MrsAraps

    Mr_MrsAraps

    9 years ago

    Why put a label on it. If it feels right for you then why worry or over think it. Just see where it takes you. Cheers W

  • hungsubboy

    hungsubboy

    9 years ago

    Quoting 'Mr_MrsAraps' Why put a label on it. If it feels right for you then why worry or over think it. Just see where it takes you. Cheers W Thank you W. I have had a lot of support from people on here to just embrace it and not think about it! Its nice to see that people on here hold an open mind with the mentality of " what ever floats your boat" so to speak and no judgment.

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    we're all just people, younger, older, male, female, black, white, and all the shades in between. Between you and me I celebrate my diversity and I pity the people in their little boxes. I firmly believe we are the future. Hot story too, got me twitching !

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    You sound like a very lost and confused soul. Stop watching videos and get back to reality. - Posted from rhpmobile

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    Quoting 'Matchingcouple' You sound like a very lost and confused soul. Stop watching videos and get back to reality. - Posted from rhpmobile What do you see as reality in your world ?From your profile it would appear there is some sexual discrimination going on !Good for the goose should be good for the gander ?But for all I know it might be duck season, so shoot away. Each to there own.

  • RHP

    RHP User

    9 years ago

    Great Post!And thanks for answering a question I have been asking myself for a few years now. As I didn't know what was happening to me.I love watching porn, usually just female porn in the early years. But I have found myself watching only bi or femdom porn recently.. And I really get off seeing a big black dick. Although there still has to be at least 1 female in the action. And I can only cum when when there is a nice big cock cum shot. I am picky and sometimes watch for too many hours while wanking to get the right money shot.I have never touched another cock or had a bi experience or even a lady fucking me with a strap on while I suck on a cock. I so want to give it a go, but a lot scared as I don't know why I have felt this urge lately. But the answer must be exposure, I guess, I blame it on internet porn. The more I see, the more I want to try something that is, for want of a better word, common sex.Thanks for the post, I don't feel so weird anymore as I think I have an answer. Anyho, horny now and must watch some more while I have a wank.

  • hungsubboy

    hungsubboy

    9 years ago

    Quoting '50wetfigs' we're all just people, younger, older, male, female, black, white, and all the shades in between. Between you and me I celebrate my diversity and I pity the people in their little boxes. I firmly believe we are the future. Hot story too, got me twitching ! Thanks 50, glad you like my story and for the support!

  • hungsubboy

    hungsubboy

    9 years ago

    Quoting 'Matchingcouple' You sound like a very lost and confused soul. Stop watching videos and get back to reality. - Posted from rhpmobile Interesting take Matching - Which one of the couple made that comment the male or the female? Why is it that you have this view?

  • hungsubboy

    hungsubboy

    9 years ago

    Quoting '1415andy' Quoting 'Matchingcouple' You sound like a very lost and confused soul. Stop watching videos and get back to reality. - Posted from rhpmobile What do you see as reality in your world ?From your profile it would appear there is some sexual discrimination going on !Good for the goose should be good for the gander ?But for all I know it might be duck season, so shoot away. Each to there own. Nice!!!! and thank you 1415andy! Appreciate the back up! There is always one right, in this case two.....

  • hungsubboy

    hungsubboy

    9 years ago

    Quoting 'Philthy696' Great Post!And thanks for answering a question I have been asking myself for a few years now. As I didn't know what was happening to me.I love watching porn, usually just female porn in the early years. But I have found myself watching only bi or femdom porn recently.. And I really get off seeing a big black dick. Although there still has to be at least 1 female in the action. And I can only cum when when there is a nice big cock cum shot. I am picky and sometimes watch for too many hours while wanking to get the right money shot.I have never touched another cock or had a bi experience or even a lady fucking me with a strap on while I suck on a cock. I so want to give it a go, but a lot scared as I don't know why I have felt this urge lately. But the answer must be exposure, I guess, I blame it on internet porn. The more I see, the more I want to try something that is, for want of a better word, common sex.Thanks for the post, I don't feel so weird anymore as I think I have an answer. Anyho, horny now and must watch some more while I have a wank. Cheers Philthy696, I am glad that someone who has gone through something similar to me has replied and understands what I mean by the internet and porn changing how we think and our perceptions of what turns us on. I think you hit the nail on the head where you said it has desensitised you. I agree 110% Not only with the desensitisation, but for opening you up to wanting to try new and "different" things as a result of the porn you have been watching.

  • twowithnolimits

    twowithnolimits

    7 years ago

    its not just the porn the desensitizes us, its the sex acts themselves the more you have the more you are driven for the bigger buzz, although you can still enjoy the "normal" from time to time... still who wouldn't set aside the norm for a BBC when given the chance

  • RHP

    RHP User

    7 years ago

    That is a really interesting question, and I am no expert so I'm not sure if watching something can turn you. Perhaps you sought out that type of porn because your subconscious was curious about big black cocks to begin with? I know men that consider themselves straight can have a cock fetish. The bit about waiting in the glory hole rooms waiting for the right cock.....I have definitely heard that before! You are not the only one who does that. Happy sucking. lol. :)

  • RHP

    RHP User

    7 years ago

    I eat vegetables, that doesn't make me a vegetarian.