Newly bi-curious, how do?

If the title reads like it was written by an idiot, that’s because I feel like one. I’ve come out of a decade long relationship at the beginning of the year, and as this was literally my first relationship I feel absolutely amiss and screwed over. While the relationship was on the rocks to begin with because of crap out of either of our control, the way it ended was with her getting sloshed and getting sucked by another man. She’s the mother to my four kids: I was, and still am gutted. So much so that it made me question my sexuality. I’ve gone to the effort to try anal play myself, and I cannot even begin to describe the sheer ecstasy I felt. I’m hooked, and I fully understand the meaning of the phrase ‘cock hungry’. It’s nearly impossible to ignore, and I’m finding myself nervously gazing at the bi/gay profiles on here… which now lends the question. Where do I go from here? I’m having difficulty hooking up and as I’ve been out of the dating scene for a literal decade, I can’t begin to figure out how to, or even where to start. I’m in rural Vic near the border, with no real transport aside from public transit as I’m medically unable to drive just yet. I can’t come into Melbourne easily and even going between the nearby towns requires planning. Can anyone help me figure out how, for lack of a better term, find out how to find out how a real cock feels? I really want to explore this as much and as safely as possible.